As I go back I've got a list of questions. I told Joy this the other day and she said, "Funny how much you didn't understand as you went into this. I think you were in a state of shock at the time." I thought about that and I think she was right, I know she was. I had no idea all that would be involved in this or how long it would take me to get back to "normal" (I still don't feel like I'm there even yet). I didn't understand that you gain some things, but then you lose others. Like - I'm not in the wheelchair anymore and I'm able to use my hands and fingers to feed myself and do the "little" things in life that we take for granted (like dress myself completely). For all this I am very thankful, but I didn't realize that my back (shoulders) would hurt like they do, or that my head would feel so funny and heavy to hold up, or that my arm would still have that pain like it does. However, all these little problems are small compared to not being able to walk or use my hands. I still walk a little funny. I'm not sure if it's because of the surgery or just in my head ~ I'm still so aware that I could fall and I'm afraid of that happening....so I walk very carefully. Perhaps after they send me on to physical therapy I'll be able to do better. We'll just wait and see.
I'll try to get back to the blog after our trip down to Mayo. It will be a week or so (unless I can get Barbara to fill in for me). After we finish at Mayo on Monday we're going on down into FL to rest lay in the sun and swim in the pool! We are both ready to do this, but especially Lowell. This has been a really hard summer for him and a lot of pressure. He is used to battles, but he doesn't handle them as well when they involve family and believe me this was a big summer for him. He needs to hear the Dr. say that I'm OK and can get back to normal and then to rest and let his mind stop spinning. He's 76 and still working a full 40+ hours a week and his poor mind just spins all the time. If you're looking for something to really pray about, pray for him. He also found out yesterday that he has a cataract on both eyes and they are ripe. He doesn't want to hear it and he sure doesn't want to do anything about it. He says he sees just fine and doesn't need it. Ummm, well, even the Dr. said, "You're not seeing as well as you think you are." Just pray for him, he's a man and isn't going to go down with out a fight...or something like that.
There are other things that I'd like prayer for too, but this isn't the time or place to go into it all. Just know that we continue to stand in need of your prayers. These last 3 months I've seen first hand what it means to have people praying for you. You know what? I need it! I need it for my physical well being, emotionally, and spiritually. The best thing is that spiritually I know that He has begun a good work in my life and body and that He WILL complete it for His glory. He has been so good to teach me several things this summer, but believe me I haven't learned it all by any means, so keep praying.
Again, I thank each and every one of you who have prayed. The Lord has heard your request and has answered according to His plan and purpose for my life.
Thank You, so much!!
Georgie ~ or better known as Momma : )
